Sunday, October 14, 2012

It's difficult to fly with all these children hanging on to my cape!

Supermom...I've been called that many times.  My response usually is, "Just talk to my children, they'll straighten you out."  I have wondered what it would be like to have super powers.  I've told my family many times that I would choose the super stretchy powers that Mrs. Incredible had.  Wouldn't it be great to continue cooking dinner while tending to your children in the living room?  Okay, back to reality.  There are times that I think, "If only people could see me now, they would never refer to me as Supermom!"  Some days I feel more like the villain rather than a superhero.

When Timothy's life was on the line, I knew there was nothing I could do to control the situation.  I knew there was only so much that the medical staff could do as well.  God was the only one in complete control of my son's life.  While we were waiting for him to wake up after surgery, wondering what his life would look like, I knew that he was completely in God's hands.  I've realized over the past couple of weeks that it's easier for me to trust in the power of God when situation is so big, that I know I'm not in control.  The problem for me has been remembering to trust the power of God in the details of our new everyday life.  It's not a matter of questioning whether God can handle or even wants to be a part of the details of my day.  I start the day with the promises of His word, encouraged and ready to go.  Somewhere along the way, I find myself bogged down in the happenings of my day.  I haven't been sleeping well lately, which causes me to struggle more with my dizzy spells.  When I'm struggling with my dizzy spells, it makes me really tired.  When I'm really tired, I struggle with focus and patience.  When I'm struggling with focus and patience, it makes it difficult to complete all the tasks that need to be done each day.  When I don't get all the things done that I need to in a day, it stresses me out.  When I'm stressed, I don't sleep well.  I find myself wondering how I got on this vicious merry-go-round and just when I think there's nothing to do but hang on for dear life, God speaks.  He reminds me how He has been there the whole time, it was me who walked away.  He says, "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."(Mt. 11:28-28), "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace.  In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." (John 16:33), and "Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your cares upon Him for He cares for you."(1 Peter 5:6-7)  I wish I could say that I only have to be reminded once and never struggle again.  One of the ways that God is using this trial is to teach me more about Him and how to surrender on a daily, sometimes hourly basis.  He reminds me how all I need each day is in Him. So, while I am not even close to being a Supermom, I do serve a super God.  He's ready to supply all I need to be the wife and mom He's called me to be.

1 comment:

  1. Amen, sister. I hear ya. May I remember to trust in him especially when i can't get off the ground, but also when i can. all for HIS GLORY!